I think it will. [So the well did that correctly, but.] I need to find a way out of this place first. When I jump - the castle is always right next to me, or it still climbs higher and higher, as far as I go.
[Of course he tried.]
If I attempt to jump too far in one direction, I find myself right back where I was - just on the castle grounds.
[It's the report part that he answers first.]
... and it comes with a drawback, in case you plan on trying to get a wish of your own granted.
[Jae-ha pauses at that, trying to recall - ] How much... have I told you?
[It's odd, to think that so much could be covered in just a little bit over a week. Jae-ha pauses then, moves to sit on the bed, the only implication that he feels like this might take longer to go over.]
.... does your country have a creation myth? Kouka does. That's where I'm from - same for Captain Gi-gan and... ah, Soo-won is here too. He's the King... in a manner of speaking.
[It's Complicated.]
But the dragons have been born since the beginning, supposedly. Ever since King Hiryuu descended from the skies, and the dragon gods who loved him granted their blood and powers to humans, making them their other halves. Even when the original dragons died, more were born to replace them. These dragons... fate ties them together, and it ties them toward the one person that they're meant to serve, the reincarnation of King Hiryuu.
Before I came here, I could sense their presence. I would know how far away they were, and I would run from them, because I don't want to be caught up in something I didn't choose for myself. Eventually - they found me, and.... I decided they were worth my time.
When I came here, I couldn't feel their presence.
[He pauses, and places a hand over his heart.]
... I do now.
But it's a constant.... ache - like there's something wrong with them.
It feels like they're... far away from where I can reach.
So they granted me back my dragon blood... just to tell me that.
If it's going to be storytime, then Sousei will sit next to Jae-ha on the bed. There's nothing to it, it's just that it makes more sense to listen on the same level, from a sitting position, obviously.
Also while it is not the point of the story, Sousei thinks of Jae-ha's love of freedom and wonders how he feels about being tied to someone he's "meant to serve".
Still... the other dragons, clearly, he cares a great deal for.]
... I see. [Sousei frowns, head tilting forward as he thinks.]
So they allowed you to reconnect to them, but only so that you could see just how far from them you've been stolen away to.
[... That's cruel. He really...really hates this place so, so much. So while his voice is soft, his hands have balled into fists.]
It aches in his chest. He wonders - is Shin-ah okay? Is Ki-ja alright? Zeno? Yona? His connection with Yona is different, it's not as loud as the other dragons, it's not as strong and he can't pinpoint where she is exactly but - like this... he feels it. He feels like they're fading, like they'll slip away when he stops paying attention.
He closes his eyes for a moment, his smile rueful.]
It's like the feeling we get when we're apart - but it's constant. That... nagging. But -
[He can survive this.]
.... the gift I was given outweighs it - if I can make it useful.
[Sousei says that much tartly, brow furrowed. Everything that's happening here...]
And wishes even more so.
[There's nothing wrong with having a wish--nothing wrong with a hope for the future, a wish for something better, and he hates the thought that there should be here and now.]
Even though I agree with you, this is what we have. It's unpleasant, but I'm alive and have practice ignoring it. For a long time I didn't even want to feel their presences...
[And so he finds it difficult to hold onto his anger - ]
But just be careful, in case you want to turn in that token of yours. You'll probably get what you want, but it'll probably bring along something you could do without too.
[There's a contemplative pause at that, and he really does waver between them. But honestly, agreeing to it is basically giving Jae-ha an honest answer anyway--
You are someone who has gone through significantly more than any one person should have to bear over the course of a short period of time, and now there is this on top of all of that.
[ . . . and then his honest answer in return. Right.
Jae-ha lets his eyes roam upward, toward the ceiling, even as he relaxes back against the bed and hums softly. Will he be alright?]
... You feel it, right? The way that my presence is supposed to make everything feel... easier, like that's how it's meant to be. But that's not how you actually feel, that's just how your blood - how this castle - is making you feel. Even if I wouldn't mind if felt that way about me on your own... it's uncertain whether that's the case.
It's like... that. I'm supposed to be brothers with the dragons, because that's what fate told me. I was meant to serve a king that I'd never met. I hated it, so I ignored it. When they came to find me in Awa - when I was still with Captain Gi-gan - I ran from them, all over town.
[... Well. That's a fair and honest answer, he thinks. It's playing on something that still bothers Jae-ha in a subtle and terrible way, and Sousei crosses his arms contemplatively.]
Do you regret that you care about them this much, though it now aligns you with that fate you were trying to escape?
[ . . . Jae-ha pauses at that, and frowns. Openly.]
... Saying yes would be saying that I regret all the times I've had with them since, and I don't.
They weren't alone when they found me - they brought along a young girl... the one who is meant to be the reincarnation of King Hiryuu.
But - I don't follow her because of that.
I was ready to run from her and them for as long as I could but.... she helped save Awa, and end the fight that the Captain and I had been waging for years. It's for that reason, because she was someone that I wanted to follow, who was worth following on her own merit, that I went with her.
The dragon blood is annoying - it gives me feeling toward her that I don't want.... but the decision to follow her, to join the dragons, was my own.
[So that's how it is, huh...? Sousei's contemplative, listening and processing, before he finally nods thoughtfully to himself.]
Then in that sense, you've taken the fate that was laid out for you and...followed it anyway.
[Which he's sure grates on Jae-ha. And yet--]
But in another sense, you have simply chosen a path of your own, regardless of the feelings that plague you, and will follow that to the end. Is that correct?
[It does grate on him - it's obvious in the way that his expression wrinkles a bit at the way it's pointed out, though it smooths out again a moment later. He tries not to think about it that way, like he played right into fate's hands but....
He sighs.]
... I follow her and them not because of some ancient prophecy, but because as people they're the ones I want to be with.
Like I wouldn't mind being next to you right now - but I hate it since the castle told me it's what I'm meant to want.
But anything that I endure here.... it's hardly new. Maybe the situation is a little twisted around from usual, but it's nothing that I haven't experienced before.
[Even the loss.
Though what he doesn't say is that this might be the first time he's lost someone so important to him.]
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[Of course he tried.]
If I attempt to jump too far in one direction, I find myself right back where I was - just on the castle grounds.
[It's the report part that he answers first.]
... and it comes with a drawback, in case you plan on trying to get a wish of your own granted.
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That says...a lot, actually. Sousei frowns.]
And what was your drawback?
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[It's odd, to think that so much could be covered in just a little bit over a week. Jae-ha pauses then, moves to sit on the bed, the only implication that he feels like this might take longer to go over.]
.... does your country have a creation myth? Kouka does. That's where I'm from - same for Captain Gi-gan and... ah, Soo-won is here too. He's the King... in a manner of speaking.
[It's Complicated.]
But the dragons have been born since the beginning, supposedly. Ever since King Hiryuu descended from the skies, and the dragon gods who loved him granted their blood and powers to humans, making them their other halves. Even when the original dragons died, more were born to replace them. These dragons... fate ties them together, and it ties them toward the one person that they're meant to serve, the reincarnation of King Hiryuu.
Before I came here, I could sense their presence. I would know how far away they were, and I would run from them, because I don't want to be caught up in something I didn't choose for myself. Eventually - they found me, and.... I decided they were worth my time.
When I came here, I couldn't feel their presence.
[He pauses, and places a hand over his heart.]
... I do now.
But it's a constant.... ache - like there's something wrong with them.
It feels like they're... far away from where I can reach.
So they granted me back my dragon blood... just to tell me that.
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If it's going to be storytime, then Sousei will sit next to Jae-ha on the bed. There's nothing to it, it's just that it makes more sense to listen on the same level, from a sitting position, obviously.
Also while it is not the point of the story, Sousei thinks of Jae-ha's love of freedom and wonders how he feels about being tied to someone he's "meant to serve".
Still... the other dragons, clearly, he cares a great deal for.]
... I see. [Sousei frowns, head tilting forward as he thinks.]
So they allowed you to reconnect to them, but only so that you could see just how far from them you've been stolen away to.
[... That's cruel. He really...really hates this place so, so much. So while his voice is soft, his hands have balled into fists.]
... These taunts are so unnecessary.
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It aches in his chest. He wonders - is Shin-ah okay? Is Ki-ja alright? Zeno? Yona? His connection with Yona is different, it's not as loud as the other dragons, it's not as strong and he can't pinpoint where she is exactly but - like this... he feels it. He feels like they're fading, like they'll slip away when he stops paying attention.
He closes his eyes for a moment, his smile rueful.]
It's like the feeling we get when we're apart - but it's constant. That... nagging. But -
[He can survive this.]
.... the gift I was given outweighs it - if I can make it useful.
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[Sousei says that much tartly, brow furrowed. Everything that's happening here...]
And wishes even more so.
[There's nothing wrong with having a wish--nothing wrong with a hope for the future, a wish for something better, and he hates the thought that there should be here and now.]
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[And so he finds it difficult to hold onto his anger - ]
But just be careful, in case you want to turn in that token of yours. You'll probably get what you want, but it'll probably bring along something you could do without too.
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I will keep that in mind, though I believe currently the risk is worth the attempt, when I have thought of a suitably wish.
[Either way--]
Will you be all right like this?
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[he's not answering the question,,]
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[REMEMBER...]
And you are avoiding the question.
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[why are they doing this]
So I'll trade you an honest answer for an honest answer.
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...So he sighs.]
Fine then. It's a deal.
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[why]
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Very well then.
You are someone who has gone through significantly more than any one person should have to bear over the course of a short period of time, and now there is this on top of all of that.
Yes.
I am concerned.
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Jae-ha's an idiot.
Because even after making a deal for an honest answer.
He's a little stunned.]
... ah.
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Jae-ha lets his eyes roam upward, toward the ceiling, even as he relaxes back against the bed and hums softly. Will he be alright?]
... You feel it, right? The way that my presence is supposed to make everything feel... easier, like that's how it's meant to be. But that's not how you actually feel, that's just how your blood - how this castle - is making you feel. Even if I wouldn't mind if felt that way about me on your own... it's uncertain whether that's the case.
It's like... that. I'm supposed to be brothers with the dragons, because that's what fate told me. I was meant to serve a king that I'd never met. I hated it, so I ignored it. When they came to find me in Awa - when I was still with Captain Gi-gan - I ran from them, all over town.
I wasn't - actually meant to care this much.
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Do you regret that you care about them this much, though it now aligns you with that fate you were trying to escape?
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... Saying yes would be saying that I regret all the times I've had with them since, and I don't.
They weren't alone when they found me - they brought along a young girl... the one who is meant to be the reincarnation of King Hiryuu.
But - I don't follow her because of that.
I was ready to run from her and them for as long as I could but.... she helped save Awa, and end the fight that the Captain and I had been waging for years. It's for that reason, because she was someone that I wanted to follow, who was worth following on her own merit, that I went with her.
The dragon blood is annoying - it gives me feeling toward her that I don't want.... but the decision to follow her, to join the dragons, was my own.
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Then in that sense, you've taken the fate that was laid out for you and...followed it anyway.
[Which he's sure grates on Jae-ha. And yet--]
But in another sense, you have simply chosen a path of your own, regardless of the feelings that plague you, and will follow that to the end. Is that correct?
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He sighs.]
... I follow her and them not because of some ancient prophecy, but because as people they're the ones I want to be with.
Like I wouldn't mind being next to you right now - but I hate it since the castle told me it's what I'm meant to want.
[prickly bitch]
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[In all honesty:]
I can believe in a sentiment like that. Being forced into something, constrained into some ridiculous fate...
[Bah.]
You are the sort of person who is at your best when you are free anyway, correct?
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... I think so.
At the very least, I think pursuing that freedom to make whatever choices I want - that's the most beautiful way to live.
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[No arguments here, honestly; that's Tenka's way of life now, in a lot of ways, and he's come to admire that.]
It is not something that should be taken from you, either way.
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[And that he'll say with far more certainty.]
But anything that I endure here.... it's hardly new. Maybe the situation is a little twisted around from usual, but it's nothing that I haven't experienced before.
[Even the loss.
Though what he doesn't say is that this might be the first time he's lost someone so important to him.]
So you shouldn't have reason to worry.
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You do not get to decide for me what I am concerned over or not.
[Yeah.]
I can decide that on my own perfectly well, and I have already decided for myself.
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