[what's up waver, here's someone who definitely is about to interrupt your peaceful time. jae-ha is wandering around, apparently looking for people and when he catches sigh of waver, he's just going to ask straight up - ]
[ peaceful and waver are two things that are never meant to go together, and this is no different. waver seems to be staring blankly at a glass of whiskey, as if waiting for it to give him some answers.
but when jae-ha appears, he looks up, his expression immediately shifting to something more serious. ]
I have not. Although I suppose that he might not wish to be around for much talking, considering today's events.
... no, but being alone in his condition probably won't help him much either.
[Or at least, that's what Jae-ha thinks. He sighs and moves to sit across from Waver, if only because Eichi should maybe have some more time left to recover.]
Both of them, most likely. One had a near breakdown, if not a complete one. The other must deal with the idea that people might go after his partner in retaliation for his suspected crimes.
[near confirmed.
but.
you know.]
Not even counting the fact that they actually like each other.
Is it that strange to get along with your partner?
[ he quirks an eyebrow. reyna and him have been getting along well enough, so waver hadn't noticed if the others felt the same way about their partners.
also he may be misinterpreting it because akeichi is canon ]
It's not - but it's an additional weight. Not only are their lives tied together, but empathy and friendship and... well, whatever else kids do are tied up in it.
[ there's a long moment of silence from waver. he wonders not about this so called 'war' but the holy grail war from ten years prior. if only it had been that easy to cut his emotions off...maybe the death of his king wouldn't have hurt half as badly.
but, on the other hand, waver wouldn't have been able to become half the person he is now if that idiot hadn't gotten so close to him.
considering both options, waver sighs and downs his drink, if only to help him numb the pain in his chest. ]
There are necessary weights we must carry at times, Jae-Ha. It may not be your time to do so, but for others it is.
he can hear it. the memory of the spellcaster telling him that all he does is 'criticize people from his high horse'. for some reason, he's starting to believe that it might just have some truth to it.
And he'll get a cup of his own and fill it with whatever Waver's drinking, motioning with the cup and giving a wink.]
Apology accepted.
There's plenty of young people around - I imagine your lectures will just probably do them more good than myself. So don't take offense to my question.
[ the laugh doesn't sit well for waver, and he actually groans softly; how he hates being made fun of. however, he lets it go with a sigh and a tired, bitter smile ]
Some say you can't teach an old dog new tricks, but I wonder if that's necessarily true? [ but then he goes silent, in thought. ] Your mother must have taught you a great deal, though. Maybe it's time you pass her teachings to others.
It's a glimpse of an emotion, something startled and then something viscerally angry - but he's not in the interest of letting people see him in that state. Not since that first week. So he leaves. He walks away from the execution sight and it'll be hard to find him again for a while after that, given how he keeps launching himself into the sky away away away from the castle.
Though eventually he'll return to himself, and return to what he thinks he needs to do.
One of those things is to get the same bottle of alcohol he'd seen Waver drinking before, two glasses, and then going to find him. He holds them up in offer.]
[ what is with people disturbing waver when he wants to be as far away from people as possible????
anyways, jae-ha can probably find him trying to sleep on the couch of the earth dorm common room...but once waver hears the steps it's all over. he sits up, listens to the request, looks at the bottle of alcohol, and groans. ]
I've drank more these past four weeks than I have my entire life.
Then I take it that you hadn't found yourself in a murderous castle stuck in a war game before. That's good.
[But Jae-ha just hums pleasantly as he goes to take a sit on an open city. He opens the bottle and pours them both a glass, offering to hand one out to Waver.]
For what it's worth, I'd say that I'm almost getting to the amount of alcohol I'd consumed in the rest of my life.
It cost me more than I would've liked. But even if I gained Reyna's distrust and anger, plus some others, I cemented the fact that she was not involved in that murder.
[ and though he can feel the stress beating him senseless, it's nothing he can't calm down with some alcohol.
so he drinks. ]
I don't regret it. So if you're here to tell me off, do it quickly.
I have. She did not accept it. [ and he'll finish his drink with that! ] I don't mind, considering she's rightfully angry and that she said she would still think about it.
[ he sighs ]
She thinks she's all pragmatism, but inside she's still a teenager. A teenager thrust into war too soon.
I told you just now, didn't I? I was in a war, too. Around her age.
[ not only that, but the memory sharing...but he won't disclose any of that. no, those are things he will keep to himself, and that he will have to find out from reyna on his own. ]
Though the war was not a common one, it still took lives. It left scars. [ on him, at least. psychological ones. ] I was a stupid teenager looking for honor and recognition and thinking I could handle a war against far more powerful enemies. I obtained the recognition I had so foolishly craved...but lost far too much along the way.
[ he closes his eyes for a second, taking the moment to serve himself a drink in order to down it in one shot. ]
Don't get me wrong, though, Jae-Ha. I don't think she regrets her lifestyle. It's just that she was thrust into it way too soon.
[What Jae-ha doesn't say is that some people are born into war, and they know nothing else in their life. He keeps it to himself, because he's not here to argue. He knows that it's just how Waver talks - like he knows better than everyone else in the room - but some part of it still irks at Jae-ha's personal experience.
The part of him that believes everyone should be able to be free - and that includes expectations from other people.
He drinks quietly.]
... you still talk like she's one of your students.
And not your partner.
Maybe you should have a conversation about that, first.
[ waver's expression doesn't budge, even when jae-ha prods him with criticism. maybe it's because he's used to it. maybe it's because he doesn't think he's doing anything wrong in the first place.
he folds his hands on his lap. ]
I don't want her to steer herself into self-destruction, that's all.
[ now THAT'S going to get an eyebrow raise out of waver ]
I'm not holding a physical nor metaphorical leash around Lady Reyna. She's free to do as she pleases with whomever she pleases because she is not my daughter nor am I her professor. Did I grow nervous at the end of the trial? Yes I did. That's why I did what I did, and I apologized for it. But I do not regret it, because I gain nothing with regret.
And while she may not be my student, she is my partner and that means that she has expectations from me as I have expectations from her. If that is your idea of having a leash on someone, then fine, but I don't agree with you.
You know as well as I do that 'having expectations of your partner' is not the same thing as being controlling.
[Jae-ha's great at feigning to be an idiot, and sometimes he really is an idiot, but he blinks at the notion that he could confuse the two.]
Because in essence - that's what you chose to do at the trial. You forced her into something. I came to have a conversation with you because I was trying to understand why - you've painted something of a target on your back, which I didn't believe you deserved.
But when you say things like you don't wish her toward self-destruction, when you're the one who aided in her being suspected in the first place, it doesn't make much sense - does it?
I wondered if this is your tendency to speak as a professor, the tone that makes you so condescending, considering the fact that Reyna's been nothing but upfront in trials.
Now I'm just wondering if you're bad at reading people.
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week 1, sunday
Have you seen Eichi around anywhere?
[he presumes that
he doesn't need to explain who eichi is]
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but when jae-ha appears, he looks up, his expression immediately shifting to something more serious. ]
I have not. Although I suppose that he might not wish to be around for much talking, considering today's events.
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[Or at least, that's what Jae-ha thinks. He sighs and moves to sit across from Waver, if only because Eichi should maybe have some more time left to recover.]
Drinking to take the edge off?
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[ it's difficult to take the edge off when the edge is as sharp as a meat cleaver, but sure.
but that's enough about him. ]
I would say that Eichi has his partner but...I'm not sure which one needs more support at the moment.
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[near confirmed.
but.
you know.]
Not even counting the fact that they actually like each other.
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[ he quirks an eyebrow. reyna and him have been getting along well enough, so waver hadn't noticed if the others felt the same way about their partners.
also he may be misinterpreting it because akeichi is canon ]
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[youth, man]
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but, on the other hand, waver wouldn't have been able to become half the person he is now if that idiot hadn't gotten so close to him.
considering both options, waver sighs and downs his drink, if only to help him numb the pain in his chest. ]
There are necessary weights we must carry at times, Jae-Ha. It may not be your time to do so, but for others it is.
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Jae-ha stares.
For a long moment.]
Did you just try to lecture me?
[He lost his mother figure and was betrayed by his partner in the very first week of the game. He thinks he knows a thing or two about 'weights'.]
Is that your natural professor disposition talking or do you always come off as condescending?
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..................
......................................
he can hear it. the memory of the spellcaster telling him that all he does is 'criticize people from his high horse'. for some reason, he's starting to believe that it might just have some truth to it.
he downs his drink.]
Definitely the former. I apologize.
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Laughs.
And he'll get a cup of his own and fill it with whatever Waver's drinking, motioning with the cup and giving a wink.]
Apology accepted.
There's plenty of young people around - I imagine your lectures will just probably do them more good than myself. So don't take offense to my question.
Your good intentions are charming.
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Some say you can't teach an old dog new tricks, but I wonder if that's necessarily true? [ but then he goes silent, in thought. ] Your mother must have taught you a great deal, though. Maybe it's time you pass her teachings to others.
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Oh.
Did you think the Captain was my real mother?
She'd hit you if she heard that.
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[ look how quickly waver became annoyed. didn't even take a second. ]
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[waver really didn't need this]
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[ hE DOESN'T WANT THIS AT ALL ]
week 3, sunday
It's a glimpse of an emotion, something startled and then something viscerally angry - but he's not in the interest of letting people see him in that state. Not since that first week. So he leaves. He walks away from the execution sight and it'll be hard to find him again for a while after that, given how he keeps launching himself into the sky away away away from the castle.
Though eventually he'll return to himself, and return to what he thinks he needs to do.
One of those things is to get the same bottle of alcohol he'd seen Waver drinking before, two glasses, and then going to find him. He holds them up in offer.]
A moment of your time?
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anyways, jae-ha can probably find him trying to sleep on the couch of the earth dorm common room...but once waver hears the steps it's all over. he sits up, listens to the request, looks at the bottle of alcohol, and groans. ]
I've drank more these past four weeks than I have my entire life.
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[But Jae-ha just hums pleasantly as he goes to take a sit on an open city. He opens the bottle and pours them both a glass, offering to hand one out to Waver.]
For what it's worth, I'd say that I'm almost getting to the amount of alcohol I'd consumed in the rest of my life.
[but not quite! bc. pirates.]
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[ he takes the glass, however, taking a sip from the liquor. it burns and it tastes horrible, but he'll take it. ]
I doubt you're here for idle chatter, though, so it's best to get to the point.
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You're right.
I wanted to talk to you.
... you pulled quite a risky gambit at the end of the trial, after all.
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[ and though he can feel the stress beating him senseless, it's nothing he can't calm down with some alcohol.
so he drinks. ]
I don't regret it. So if you're here to tell me off, do it quickly.
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[He's in the habit of asking questions until he reaches some semblance of understanding with what's going on with everything around him.]
... I just wonder - have you apologized?
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[ he sighs ]
She thinks she's all pragmatism, but inside she's still a teenager. A teenager thrust into war too soon.
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And what are your experiences that make you so sure that you know better than her?
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[ not only that, but the memory sharing...but he won't disclose any of that. no, those are things he will keep to himself, and that he will have to find out from reyna on his own. ]
Though the war was not a common one, it still took lives. It left scars. [ on him, at least. psychological ones. ] I was a stupid teenager looking for honor and recognition and thinking I could handle a war against far more powerful enemies. I obtained the recognition I had so foolishly craved...but lost far too much along the way.
[ he closes his eyes for a second, taking the moment to serve himself a drink in order to down it in one shot. ]
Don't get me wrong, though, Jae-Ha. I don't think she regrets her lifestyle. It's just that she was thrust into it way too soon.
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The part of him that believes everyone should be able to be free - and that includes expectations from other people.
He drinks quietly.]
... you still talk like she's one of your students.
And not your partner.
Maybe you should have a conversation about that, first.
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he folds his hands on his lap. ]
I don't want her to steer herself into self-destruction, that's all.
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Do your good intentions blind you to the fact that you're being controlling, as well as condescending?
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[ now THAT'S going to get an eyebrow raise out of waver ]
I'm not holding a physical nor metaphorical leash around Lady Reyna. She's free to do as she pleases with whomever she pleases because she is not my daughter nor am I her professor. Did I grow nervous at the end of the trial? Yes I did. That's why I did what I did, and I apologized for it. But I do not regret it, because I gain nothing with regret.
And while she may not be my student, she is my partner and that means that she has expectations from me as I have expectations from her. If that is your idea of having a leash on someone, then fine, but I don't agree with you.
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[Jae-ha's great at feigning to be an idiot, and sometimes he really is an idiot, but he blinks at the notion that he could confuse the two.]
Because in essence - that's what you chose to do at the trial. You forced her into something. I came to have a conversation with you because I was trying to understand why - you've painted something of a target on your back, which I didn't believe you deserved.
But when you say things like you don't wish her toward self-destruction, when you're the one who aided in her being suspected in the first place, it doesn't make much sense - does it?
I wondered if this is your tendency to speak as a professor, the tone that makes you so condescending, considering the fact that Reyna's been nothing but upfront in trials.
Now I'm just wondering if you're bad at reading people.