No, just kidding, Jae-ha is content just to be in the air, further and further away from the castle - though Sanji will find that when they land, they end up almost exactly in the same spot, even though Jae-ha definitely try to jump away, and not just up.
[That is... really disconcerting. Sanji didn't expect to get away, no, but he didn't expect to land in the exact same spot when he knows Jae-Ha propelled them forward.
This place is such a pain]
Well, I ain't getting my Sky Walk ability back any time soon, so...
... I can understand the sentiment. Everything just feels too closed down there.
[But.
It's still not enough. Being up here helps - but there's still a tension in his shoulders, something considerably different from how relaxed he carries himself normally.
He can't just keep running, but for now he's still trying.]
... someone told him that he was just a pawn, meant to be discarded. For years, he endured that, from someone that he loved. [It's Sandalphon's business but - he trusts Sanji not to blab. It doesn't even matter now, does it? It's just... a story now.] And he believed it.
[He ends up glad when they start to descend because there's the slight tension in Jae-ha's hands, like he wants to grip onto something. He doesn't actually hold any tighter onto Sanji, but it's the smallest tell of his agitation.]
He did terrible things, too.
... but maybe it all could've been avoided, if his freedom was never taken from him in the first place. If he wanted to do something else with what he's capable of.
[This time, when they land, Jae-ha moves to put Sanji down - and turns away, flicking his hair over his shoulder irritatedly.]
... well, he didn't tell me he was in love.
But I wondered - how could you hang onto someone's word like that? How can you have so much faith in them - and be so angry with them at the same time? That type of complicated feeling...
[Not the kind Sandalphon deserved to get saddle with. Feeling a bit tired, Sanji stretches his legs a little, cracks his neck]
But maybe it's not my place to say. He was so damn certain he was doing the right thing, giving up... and we let him because are hands were tied --- and it was convenient.
[Sanji won't make excuses for himself. He picked Sandalphon's name, because it was going to save Ion. He'll live with that sin if he's gotta]
It was. It was so simple, to let him get what he wanted. And people will commend him, and tell him that he did the right thing for choosing to give up his life so that others could survive.
[It's obvious by Jae-ha's tone that he disagrees.]
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And opens his arm for Sanji to come closer.
Get gay, Chef.]
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And Sanji won't mention how this won't work -- Jae-Ha knows, that's not the point.
Sometimes it's the effort you need, to say that you tried]
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But considering he fact that this is Jae-ha - he's going to push his luck if it's funny.
So he's going to swap Sanji into a princess carry and then immediately take off.
Get gayer, Chef.]
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Sanji is not clinging to his stupid robe either like a damsel.
He hopes they crash into the moon]
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No, just kidding, Jae-ha is content just to be in the air, further and further away from the castle - though Sanji will find that when they land, they end up almost exactly in the same spot, even though Jae-ha definitely try to jump away, and not just up.
.... still though, he snorts.]
Again?
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This place is such a pain]
Well, I ain't getting my Sky Walk ability back any time soon, so...
[A nod]
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He's been doing this for a while now, but Jae-ha just laugh faintly.]
Alright, then again.
[He wonders - how long will they repeat this?]
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Until Jae-Ha wants to stop.
Muttering to himself as they climb back up into the sky]
I missed being up here... almost as much as I miss the sea.
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... I can understand the sentiment. Everything just feels too closed down there.
[But.
It's still not enough. Being up here helps - but there's still a tension in his shoulders, something considerably different from how relaxed he carries himself normally.
He can't just keep running, but for now he's still trying.]
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[Glancing up at the stars. They're brighter, this close up.]
Kinda hate they gave us a cage where we can't even see the bars.
[It makes the hope of escape that much more painful]
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[And even though his tone is light, there's the note of something tense underneath - a live wire.]
Though... it feels better to be up here, than down there, if nothing else.
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[...
Glancing at Jae-Ha. His smile reaches his eyes, but it's... sad]
So how long you plan to stay up here?
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... I don't know. Maybe I'll finish up when the urge to scream dies down a little bit more?
[For most people, he's avoided the subject. He's talked about it in circles, from a distance - but given that it's Sanji...
He can open up a little bit more about his personal feelings on it.
The way that he feels a knife in his gut every time he thinks of the trial.]
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[Just humming along like they're talking about the weather. It's easier that way, isn't it.]
... 'Cause of Sandalphon?
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Mm. I voted for Fitzgerald instead.
Even though it's what Sandalphon wanted, even if he wanted to be executed.... or maybe especially because of that?
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[Sanji... sees it a bit differently, but he can at least understand. Jae-Ha had made his feelings somewhat clear during the trial's end]
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[He ends up glad when they start to descend because there's the slight tension in Jae-ha's hands, like he wants to grip onto something. He doesn't actually hold any tighter onto Sanji, but it's the smallest tell of his agitation.]
He did terrible things, too.
... but maybe it all could've been avoided, if his freedom was never taken from him in the first place. If he wanted to do something else with what he's capable of.
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Suddenly makes perfect sense why Ion and Sandalphon were partners in the first place. Sanji lowers his eyes, and makes no mention of Jae-Ha's hands.]
Yeah, maybe.
[Too bad a "maybe" doesn't get you far in this life. You work with the hand you're dealt with... that's just how Sanji sees the world]
I wondered why he was so damn certain his life didn't have value.
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... well, he didn't tell me he was in love.
But I wondered - how could you hang onto someone's word like that? How can you have so much faith in them - and be so angry with them at the same time? That type of complicated feeling...
It sounds like something impossible to explain.
'Love' was the closest word I had.
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"Love", yeah, but not the best kind.
[Not the kind Sandalphon deserved to get saddle with. Feeling a bit tired, Sanji stretches his legs a little, cracks his neck]
But maybe it's not my place to say. He was so damn certain he was doing the right thing, giving up... and we let him because are hands were tied --- and it was convenient.
[Sanji won't make excuses for himself. He picked Sandalphon's name, because it was going to save Ion. He'll live with that sin if he's gotta]
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It was. It was so simple, to let him get what he wanted. And people will commend him, and tell him that he did the right thing for choosing to give up his life so that others could survive.
[It's obvious by Jae-ha's tone that he disagrees.]
... we really used him like a pawn.
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We did, Tiger-sama and Dragon-sama did.
[The world did]
... But regardless, it was the choice he made, so I'll respect it.
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[Because Jae-ha can't bring himself to. He accepts it, he has to - but he can't quite bring himself to be at peace with it.]
I know my feelings on it are childish - too demanding to make sense... and yet....
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You don't have to explain.
[Sanji makes zero effort to explain himself further, but his expression draws tight for a second before he breathes, slowly.]
... I couldn't do much besides teach Ion how to make coffee and hope that... maybe the kid would reach him a little, before the end.
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If anyone could do it, it'd probably be him.
Nothing I said worked.
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