She was chosen for their game, and she thought it was the only way to see her goals through to the end - or something along those lines. So she must've felt cornered.
[ . . . ]
But she chose my Captain.
That - I still can't forgive, even if I know it's not Miss Sharpay's blame alone.
... I roomed with her for days. She asked me on Thursday night to stay, to not go out after curfew, because she was scared that something might happen. I believed her.
[A shrug, but a little too delicate for Sanji. If anything, it's just a placeholder as he gathers his thoughts.]
There's a risk in trusting anyone here. Technically no one should be eating my food -- think how easy it would be to poison half the castle -- shit, I wouldn't blame anyone who ran from me.
[Pirate and all. They're not supposed to be upstanding citizens.]
But not trusting anyone doesn't guarantee anything, either.
[...]
You did the best you could. And Gi-Gan-san would've had your head if you ignored a lady's pleading, even if it turned out to be a ruse.
[ . . . . it's a fair assessment. Trusting people is hard and yet even in this war game, Jae-ha doesn't think that any of them would be inclined to kill each other. He hadn't suspected the rising star, and he didn't think that anyone would've actually been capable of bringing down his Captain.
Then again, he remembers her kindness more closely than anything else.]
You're not wrong. She would've never forgiven me.
... in the end, I don't really regret anything, or anything that I've done. If it was possible to really regret the actions of others, I'd do that.
But...
Moving forward - that's what my Captain would tell me to do, instead of getting stuck. Which is why I'm doing what I'm doing now.
[-- That kinda slips out. Sanji has to rewind and make sure it was his turn to question, and even then, his eyes tick to the side like he's mentally kicking himself]
When the person that I'm meant to serve is to come, they'll need an agile dragon. Someone young, in some cases hopefully naive. [sorry ki-ja!] The chances of that are higher if all dragons die before they outlast their prime.
... you don't need to look upset.
It just means that refusing to accept my end is in my blood, too.
That's not what I doubt - you have your Captain, your crew, everything that's waiting for you back home. Of course you don't want to die here. No one does.
[That's what Jae-ha thinks, anyway.
He hasn't run across anyone with a death wish.]
But that's why you shouldn't offer that sort of exchange.
[If it's because of Jae-Ha's words or simply Sanji bowing out of that particular convo, who can say? He's glancing off in the distance, looking a little tired.]
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[ . . . does he have anything to hide?
Time to find out.]
I'll even let you start.
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She was chosen for their game, and she thought it was the only way to see her goals through to the end - or something along those lines. So she must've felt cornered.
[ . . . ]
But she chose my Captain.
That - I still can't forgive, even if I know it's not Miss Sharpay's blame alone.
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But hey -- Sanji gets the sentiment. Pirate and all that.]
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Why did you feel the need to ask me that?
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[it's the truth]
I give women special treatment, same as you, but I don't know if I could've forgiven Sharpay if it was my own captain who died.
[In fact, he doubts it. Sanji's passion for women has its limits.]
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Forgive is a strong word.
[One that Jae-ha isn't sure he can use, but - ]
... I roomed with her for days. She asked me on Thursday night to stay, to not go out after curfew, because she was scared that something might happen. I believed her.
... I wonder if I've been too blind.
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[A shrug, but a little too delicate for Sanji. If anything, it's just a placeholder as he gathers his thoughts.]
There's a risk in trusting anyone here. Technically no one should be eating my food -- think how easy it would be to poison half the castle -- shit, I wouldn't blame anyone who ran from me.
[Pirate and all. They're not supposed to be upstanding citizens.]
But not trusting anyone doesn't guarantee anything, either.
[...]
You did the best you could. And Gi-Gan-san would've had your head if you ignored a lady's pleading, even if it turned out to be a ruse.
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Then again, he remembers her kindness more closely than anything else.]
You're not wrong. She would've never forgiven me.
... in the end, I don't really regret anything, or anything that I've done. If it was possible to really regret the actions of others, I'd do that.
But...
Moving forward - that's what my Captain would tell me to do, instead of getting stuck. Which is why I'm doing what I'm doing now.
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[-- That kinda slips out. Sanji has to rewind and make sure it was his turn to question, and even then, his eyes tick to the side like he's mentally kicking himself]
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[considering the fact that the whole point was to get sanji talking
jae-ha doesn't seem to care whether it was his turn to ask a question or not]
I've lived with an expiration date all my life - the only difference is that it was pushed up to tomorrow, rather than a nebulous 'before 30'.
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[He does.
Not like that answer.]
Are you shitting me right now?
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[That's just how it is - ]
When the person that I'm meant to serve is to come, they'll need an agile dragon. Someone young, in some cases hopefully naive. [sorry ki-ja!] The chances of that are higher if all dragons die before they outlast their prime.
... you don't need to look upset.
It just means that refusing to accept my end is in my blood, too.
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God, he needs a cigarette]
... At least you're not planning to lie down and accept shit.
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[that's right jae-ha
just keep talking like you're going to live forever
even if you haven't found a single way out]
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Oi, listen.
[...]
Not likely to happen, but if we could switch places somehow... would you take it?
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No, never. Don't be stupid.
[THAT ANSWER WAS TOO DAMN FAST]
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Sanji is also going to be super helpful and not elaborate at ALL. So. Y'know.
Your turn to question if you want it, Jae-Ha.]
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and he's going to turn it right back around to - ]
Why would you ask me something like that?
Do you want to die?
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[Well Sanji's yelling so he must be in a better mood.]
It was hypothetical! I had to test your shitty resolve.
[MmMmMMM BULLSHIT YOU DID, CHEF]
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I didn't think I'd have to ask you not to lie to me....
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Especially not in a shitty place like this.
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[That's what Jae-ha thinks, anyway.
He hasn't run across anyone with a death wish.]
But that's why you shouldn't offer that sort of exchange.
Not to anyone.
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Alright, I retract that offer.
[If it's because of Jae-Ha's words or simply Sanji bowing out of that particular convo, who can say? He's glancing off in the distance, looking a little tired.]
What do you want for dinner?
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Let's go with -
Your favorite food for when you know that you and your crew have a long night ahead.
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