[The word will not pass his lips, but yeah, he's practically acknowledging it. But he just watches Jae-ha think that over, watches him try to buy that time, and finally settles on breathing out a soft sigh, and:]
... I don't intend to repeat this. But.
I already respect you.
[He says that simply, and with surprising amounts of steadiness considering he's allergic to feelings.]
Your grief will not change my opinion on that or on you.
It doesn't feel right - to still have sadness leftover after something like that. Are you sure you won't say it again? I feel like I need to have a response that'll properly make you regret it.
[At least he's honest.
. . . Though his expression turns somber at that. He doesn't quite look at Sousei again - and he doesn't cry. He's never been the type of person to cry. Not during times of great sadness, not during times of great hopelessness, not during times of great joy. It's like that part, that level of fragility is locked up tight.
So he doesn't cry.
But he does pull up a leg to where their sitting so he can rest his forehead on it as he exhales. It's a quiet way to process grief, but it's like the slow, slow uncoiling of something that was bundled tight inside of him. His eyes shut and he repeats that one truth to himself.
Captain Gi-gan is gone.
And he could do nothing to stop it.
His fingers curl into fists and he breathes.
Just - breathes.
Like he's remembering how to, after a long time of holding his breath.]
[... Ha. He won't say it again; he already said as much, and he meant it.
But.
He's quiet.
Quiet, and patient as Jae-ha processes his grief in his own way. It's not really fair that they only have so much time before they walk to their deaths tomorrow--but that makes it all the more important that Jae-ha processes what he needs to right here and now while he has the time.
Quietly, Sousei waits, head tilted back against the wall, his eyes focused on the ceiling.
It's enough, maybe. For right now... maybe this is enough.
And maybe he respects Jae-ha all the more for being able to handle all of this as it comes, in a situation such as this, after losing someone so important--maybe he respects Jae-ha even more for being able to tap into that quiet expression of that grief here and now, when it's so very important to.]
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... I don't intend to repeat this. But.
I already respect you.
[He says that simply, and with surprising amounts of steadiness considering he's allergic to feelings.]
Your grief will not change my opinion on that or on you.
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It doesn't feel right - to still have sadness leftover after something like that. Are you sure you won't say it again? I feel like I need to have a response that'll properly make you regret it.
[At least he's honest.
. . . Though his expression turns somber at that. He doesn't quite look at Sousei again - and he doesn't cry. He's never been the type of person to cry. Not during times of great sadness, not during times of great hopelessness, not during times of great joy. It's like that part, that level of fragility is locked up tight.
So he doesn't cry.
But he does pull up a leg to where their sitting so he can rest his forehead on it as he exhales. It's a quiet way to process grief, but it's like the slow, slow uncoiling of something that was bundled tight inside of him. His eyes shut and he repeats that one truth to himself.
Captain Gi-gan is gone.
And he could do nothing to stop it.
His fingers curl into fists and he breathes.
Just - breathes.
Like he's remembering how to, after a long time of holding his breath.]
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But.
He's quiet.
Quiet, and patient as Jae-ha processes his grief in his own way. It's not really fair that they only have so much time before they walk to their deaths tomorrow--but that makes it all the more important that Jae-ha processes what he needs to right here and now while he has the time.
Quietly, Sousei waits, head tilted back against the wall, his eyes focused on the ceiling.
It's enough, maybe. For right now... maybe this is enough.
And maybe he respects Jae-ha all the more for being able to handle all of this as it comes, in a situation such as this, after losing someone so important--maybe he respects Jae-ha even more for being able to tap into that quiet expression of that grief here and now, when it's so very important to.]