[Isn't that the worst of it? That no matter how satisfied you are with the things you've done, there are always more things, grander things, better and bigger things - things that will remain unseen, untouched, untried, unheard. He's at peace with a short life, it's true. He has been since long before he first fell ill. But that doesn't stop his selfish heart from wanting more.

Souji lifts his chin a little as Jae-ha's fingers trace out his jaw, huffing out a laugh without a smile to match it.]

I think I understand what you mean... ["I can only do my best", maybe. Things are unpredictable in that awful and beautiful way life can sometimes be, but if you pursue what you believe to be right with the full amount of vigor that you can... That's all, isn't it? That's all.] Someone like you doesn't deserve to regret, so I hope you find satisfaction in the way that you live.

[Finally, he smiles, as if a belated reaction separated from his laugh by the threads of frankly morbid thought that his mind is occupied with. He turns his face a little, speaking half into Jae-ha's palm.]

I could never really picture myself living to an old age, either.

[Maybe he should keep pursuing what he wants as passionately as he can, too.]