Fufu, that sounds like the sort of generic answer I get at parties. [Blunt and mildly aggressive in that PA way of his, but he's defensive now, of Akechi.] You view him differently now, don't you?
[He notes the defensiveness - but also doesn't seem to mind it? It makes sense, to be protective of your partner, particularly after they've painted a target on their back.]
We've had this conversation, haven't we? That it's simply a desperation to survive that outweighs everything else.
[ . . . he's seen it before. Even if he doesn't praise it, he knows it.
...I see. But you can understand why I'm on edge, I hope.
[That's kind of an apology. He reaches up to touch the flower crown again, thoughtful.]
To be honest, I thought I would hate him. His smile is so hollow it makes me sick, and I saw myself in him more often than not. It's not something that I enjoy. However... he's different in many ways, as well.
[He just hums. In some ways, it's a bad thing... but in this case, he supposes it wasn't.]
He and I aren't used to having the company of "friends." Not in the way they were meant to be. For the longest time, I thought that "friends" were simply people who looked to use me for my money or status, who found some use in me and therefore I could find a use in, in return.
I know better than that, now. These warm precious things called friends are what help me move forward, even when it feels impossible to stand. I imagine for him, however, that it's still a foreign thing. Something he doesn't believe he can have. He gets quite shy, after all.
Oh? And you've taken it upon yourself to educate him?
[Jae-ha raises a brow at that, amused.]
That's quite a task that you've taken upon.
[Just given everything - the context, the people involved, the nature of their partnership - but he doesn't sound condescending by any means. Rather, he sounds impressed at the challenge.
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still sounds like the desperation of a man nearly dying and looking for some last bits of affection before he goes
jae-ha still doesn't!
say that!]
Oh? Then he's really fortunate to have a friend in you.
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Fufu, that sounds like the sort of generic answer I get at parties. [Blunt and mildly aggressive in that PA way of his, but he's defensive now, of Akechi.] You view him differently now, don't you?
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Not really.
[He notes the defensiveness - but also doesn't seem to mind it? It makes sense, to be protective of your partner, particularly after they've painted a target on their back.]
We've had this conversation, haven't we? That it's simply a desperation to survive that outweighs everything else.
[ . . . he's seen it before. Even if he doesn't praise it, he knows it.
He can't condemn it.]
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[That's kind of an apology. He reaches up to touch the flower crown again, thoughtful.]
To be honest, I thought I would hate him. His smile is so hollow it makes me sick, and I saw myself in him more often than not. It's not something that I enjoy. However... he's different in many ways, as well.
I admire him.
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Is seeing yourself in him a bad thing?
[Though it's a passing question - one that Eichi doesn't have to answer if he doesn't want to.]
Though... I suppose I can understand the notion, in some ways. I meant it sincerely when I said that I'm glad he's found a friend in you.
He doesn't seem like the type to have many genuine ones.
[just
given the way he interacted with jae-ha,,]
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He and I aren't used to having the company of "friends." Not in the way they were meant to be. For the longest time, I thought that "friends" were simply people who looked to use me for my money or status, who found some use in me and therefore I could find a use in, in return.
I know better than that, now. These warm precious things called friends are what help me move forward, even when it feels impossible to stand. I imagine for him, however, that it's still a foreign thing. Something he doesn't believe he can have. He gets quite shy, after all.
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[Jae-ha raises a brow at that, amused.]
That's quite a task that you've taken upon.
[Just given everything - the context, the people involved, the nature of their partnership - but he doesn't sound condescending by any means. Rather, he sounds impressed at the challenge.
He hopes Eichi succeeds.]
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[That would be too cruel. He wants this, too. Just as much.]
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I can understand the sentiment.
I hope that it gets easier on you both.
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[Haha]