... do you think? I was told that they wouldn't for a very long time.
[But Jae-ha notes it - and he doesn't bother to stop being a bit more luxurious about it. He runs his fingers through Zelos's hair just to work out some tangles, then continuing to weave the locks together.]
I've been thinking some ugly things today too. Those might be harder to forgive myself for.
But I don't know if I can forgive Sandalphon either - not even for what he'd done, but the way he chose to do it. I don't know if I can even give him the same respect that everyone else is.
[His emotions are swirling too intensely for that.]
He never asked for your forgiveness, and I don't think he expected it either.
[ Zelos' voice is quiet, no trace of accusation or anger. ]
Some people are just pathetic— the best they can hope for is that they weren't a complete waste of air by the time they meet their end. That's just my opinion anyway!
[ Zelos shrugs, head feeling lighter when Jae-ha's work is done. ]
There's plenty about you that makes me uncomfortable.. but I don't hate you. If you have something to say you should say it— it's not like any of this can get any worse.
Are you sure? You always get nasty when I ask something you don't want to hear.
[Apparently he doesn't care to hide what he notices anymore. Maybe he's just tired today.
But he'll just huff faintly.]
... I wanted to ask -
That opinion of yours. That people want to hope they accomplished something, anything at all, before they leave the land of the living.... Would you say that's true for you?
You didn't mean it like that when you said it - or at least, it didn't sound like it. There's a difference between wanting to accomplish many things in your life, and hoping that you didn't just waste time throughout it.
... and I don't think Sandalphon had much hope at all, which might be what set him apart compared to everyone else in the first place.
He didn't. Tomorrow isn't going to be an execution, it's going to be a funeral. He was dead before any of this even started— we're just finally burying him tomorrow.
[ I hate what I'm about to type but Zelos is gonna stand up thanks.
This is a bathhouse what's it to him if someone sees him nude?
Anyway, he reaches for a towel and pulls himself out of the water. ]
Wanting to accomplish your goals.. hoping you didn't waste your time— isn't it all the same? Let's not get hung up over details.
[this isn't the first naked twunk jae-ha's ever seen and honestly we can only hope it won't be the last
anyway he seems to consider that briefly and then answers:]
No, because one is full of hope and the other's out of desperation. It's the difference between wanting to make the most of the time you have, or being afraid of your time running out.
Anyway, he moves to go get his clothes and pulls his shirt over his head. ]
Not sure if it matters this late in the game. But I've already told you, you and me are different.
[ No more naked twunks, he's dressed now. ]
I really wish you'd spend your time on more worthwhile endeavors. I've been this way for a long time and I'll be this way even after this castle is done with me.
[and like keeping the world's best kept secret, jae-ha absolutely only went into the bath once zelos was preoccupied with getting dressed so there's no glimpse of dragon leggy
someone's self-conscious
that said.]
Ah - it's times like this that you sound exactly like Sandalphon.
[Normally he's happy to play along - but the trial really did exhaust him. So all he can do is give Zelos that wry answer and then move to wrap his own hair into a bun at the top of his head so it doesn't dip into the water.]
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[But Jae-ha notes it - and he doesn't bother to stop being a bit more luxurious about it. He runs his fingers through Zelos's hair just to work out some tangles, then continuing to weave the locks together.]
I've been thinking some ugly things today too. Those might be harder to forgive myself for.
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[ Jae-ha thinking ugly things, huh? It's hard to imagine.
He is both far too perceptive and far too kind. What sorts of ugly thoughts could linger in a mind like that? ]
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I don't agree with what you said about angels.
[What he'd said to Sandalphon.]
But I don't know if I can forgive Sandalphon either - not even for what he'd done, but the way he chose to do it. I don't know if I can even give him the same respect that everyone else is.
[His emotions are swirling too intensely for that.]
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[ Zelos' voice is quiet, no trace of accusation or anger. ]
Some people are just pathetic— the best they can hope for is that they weren't a complete waste of air by the time they meet their end. That's just my opinion anyway!
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I want to ask something, but I think you'd just hate me more if I did.
[Jae-ha normally doesn't show his hand - his own uncertainty.]
Mm, I wonder what I should say to that instead... Give me a moment, won't you?
[as he finishes up the braid on zelos's hair]
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[ Zelos shrugs, head feeling lighter when Jae-ha's work is done. ]
There's plenty about you that makes me uncomfortable.. but I don't hate you. If you have something to say you should say it— it's not like any of this can get any worse.
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[Apparently he doesn't care to hide what he notices anymore. Maybe he's just tired today.
But he'll just huff faintly.]
... I wanted to ask -
That opinion of yours. That people want to hope they accomplished something, anything at all, before they leave the land of the living.... Would you say that's true for you?
['Do you think you're pathetic?']
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Sure it is, hoped to accomplish many a task— just like anyone else!
[ He tilts his head ]
Asking things like that so late in the game? What's up with you?
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You didn't mean it like that when you said it - or at least, it didn't sound like it. There's a difference between wanting to accomplish many things in your life, and hoping that you didn't just waste time throughout it.
... and I don't think Sandalphon had much hope at all, which might be what set him apart compared to everyone else in the first place.
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[ I hate what I'm about to type but Zelos is gonna stand up thanks.
This is a bathhouse what's it to him if someone sees him nude?
Anyway, he reaches for a towel and pulls himself out of the water. ]
Wanting to accomplish your goals.. hoping you didn't waste your time— isn't it all the same? Let's not get hung up over details.
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anyway he seems to consider that briefly and then answers:]
No, because one is full of hope and the other's out of desperation. It's the difference between wanting to make the most of the time you have, or being afraid of your time running out.
I don't think that's a detail.
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Anyway, he moves to go get his clothes and pulls his shirt over his head. ]
Not sure if it matters this late in the game. But I've already told you, you and me are different.
[ No more naked twunks, he's dressed now. ]
I really wish you'd spend your time on more worthwhile endeavors. I've been this way for a long time and I'll be this way even after this castle is done with me.
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someone's self-conscious
that said.]
Ah - it's times like this that you sound exactly like Sandalphon.
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[ He stands at the edge of the water, peering down at Jae-ha. Ah, yes— time to deflect. ]
I'm way more fun than that guy, and you know it!
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Do I?
[Normally he's happy to play along - but the trial really did exhaust him. So all he can do is give Zelos that wry answer and then move to wrap his own hair into a bun at the top of his head so it doesn't dip into the water.]
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When have I not given you a good time, huh? Oh, here, lemme—
[ Before Jae-ha can quite finish Zelos pulls at Jae-ha's hands and finishes up tying his hair for him. ]