[ every conversation is the same; Zelos has no qualms with making excuses till the end of tme, usually.

But there is a part of him, small as it may be (small only because he stomps that part out of existence the moment it dares to speak) that fears that eventually Jae-ha will grow tired of such excuses and no longer seek him out.

He misses being afraid of things that didn’t have faces to them. ]

I ever tell you about the people I was traveling with before I got here?

[ he knows he didn’t ]

There were a few of them but the ones I was closest to— let’s see.. there was Sheena. Gorgeous, but naggy as hell and kind of an idiot sometimes. But she was always there when you needed her and always painfully honest. Then of course, my darling Colette— cute as a button and considerate to the point of just being depressing.

[ his tone is light though there’s something a little sad in his eyes. His hands wring the blanksheet of paper. ]

Lloyd, he was the biggest moron I’d ever met in my entire life. Loud, obnoxious, always running into bad situations without thinking twice just to help someone out. And he believed in all of his friends unconditionally. Oh, all of them except me of course.

[ Zelos reaches for the bottle again, sipping from it slowly like its juice and not alcohol ]

And I mean, good on him— because I stabbed them all in the back for my own gain. May or may not have gotten them killed, who knows, really!