[... He feels himself smile tiredly before shaking his head, a lump in his throat]
I can't.
[...]
I thought about it, heh. Still kinda wanna just go with you.
Shit, it's not like I don't know what's waiting for me back home -- probably death -- but I can't run from the people who are ready to give anything to save me.
[He's so impossible to shake when he finds something that he wants.]
You know I don't exactly have anything I can easily leave behind either. I know almost exactly where I'm going back to... perhaps I might make a small change or two, since I've heard that's possible.
[that he sort of just let it all blow up in his face - jae-ha can't quite understand it. doesn't really know if he wants to. he and zelos and sanji all have their likenesses -
but at some point they stop.
jae-ha has almost no tolerance for betrayal. that's simply what gi-gan taught him]
... stuck between not wanting to force him and not wanting to see him end it, huh?
[idly
jae-ha can't help but notice how easy it was to fall back into this back and forth, discussing the matters of everyone else around them
... perhaps this is why he was never able to stop saying he considered sanji a friend]
[Tone implying Sanji considered it, just stealing Zelos away like a prize for his own good, ready to accept the man's hatred until maybe one day it would cool back into affection.
Sanji's fine with making hard choices. Look at his time spent in the castle.
But he can't stand betrayal anymore than Jae-Ha.]
... I just want him to be happy with whatever choice he goes for.
[Sounding fuckin heartbroken but that is how it goes sometimes.]
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[Nonchalantly, as he pours Sanji a cup of tea.]
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I can't.
[...]
I thought about it, heh. Still kinda wanna just go with you.
Shit, it's not like I don't know what's waiting for me back home -- probably death -- but I can't run from the people who are ready to give anything to save me.
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[He's so impossible to shake when he finds something that he wants.]
You know I don't exactly have anything I can easily leave behind either. I know almost exactly where I'm going back to... perhaps I might make a small change or two, since I've heard that's possible.
[ . . . ]
But after.
When the fighting's over, and I'm a free dragon.
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[Sniffing a bit? Shut up, everyone in this castle knows Sanji is just a softhearted fool.]
Fine, whatever. Do what you wish. We'll go sailing together once our shit is taken care of.
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[Easily - with a smile as he takes a sip of the tea that he poured for himself. There's a happy, self-satisfied little hum.]
Shall we take Zelos with us? Is he going with you?
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I don't know if he'll go with anyone.
[Sanji's voice has fallen back into its melancholy.]
He wants to die. And I don't know if I can convince him to live.
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Is this how like you told me weeks ago that I knew him better than you did - and then the next week you ended up being horrifyingly wrong?
[He points it out - but also his expression goes serious.]
I don't know if I fully believe that he wants to die.
He might just be more nervous about the prospect of living - especially with everything he's done.
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[That Sanji says seriously, because yes -- he knows his partner too well.]
It was tough on both of us realizing we were alike in that shitty way. That's why I'm nervous.
... I have my crew to set me straight, but Zelos kinda lost his by being too afraid. [The idiot.]
Not saying I won't try. I just... don't know what the answer's gonna be.
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[that he sort of just let it all blow up in his face - jae-ha can't quite understand it. doesn't really know if he wants to. he and zelos and sanji all have their likenesses -
but at some point they stop.
jae-ha has almost no tolerance for betrayal. that's simply what gi-gan taught him]
... stuck between not wanting to force him and not wanting to see him end it, huh?
[idly
jae-ha can't help but notice how easy it was to fall back into this back and forth, discussing the matters of everyone else around them
... perhaps this is why he was never able to stop saying he considered sanji a friend]
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[Tone implying Sanji considered it, just stealing Zelos away like a prize for his own good, ready to accept the man's hatred until maybe one day it would cool back into affection.
Sanji's fine with making hard choices. Look at his time spent in the castle.
But he can't stand betrayal anymore than Jae-Ha.]
... I just want him to be happy with whatever choice he goes for.
[Sounding fuckin heartbroken but that is how it goes sometimes.]
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Keep talking like that and I'll have to reach for something stronger than tea.
[just saying]
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laughing]
He was surprised when he got your last letter, you know.
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That was pretty forward of you.
[he's bullshitting
but he's like
confidently bullshitting]
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[God he's blushing so hard so yeah there might've been a lot of straightforwardness in that letter, rip]
when i get so hype about a thread i try to subscribe to sanji's journal ig
didn't know he'd be This right]
He had such an interesting reaction to it - how could I contain my curiosity!
[that part is real at least]
god that is such a mood
What was his reaction?
[GOD THESE FUCKIN SLUTS]
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Maybe I forgot.
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[HE LOOKS SO BETRAYED]
How do you not remember his reaction, eh? What did he say after reading it?
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[LOOK, HE'S JUST FUCKING AROUND]
... he was just surprised.
I don't think he saw it coming at all.
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He told me to go sleep with Rebecca-chan because he thought I'd feel better and so I told him off.
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I'm proud of you.
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[... He is not denying it.]
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[DON'T SILENCE HIM]