It's not really about survival - I plan to make it as long as I can, but I have a shorter lifespan than most of you anyway. If I go, then I go, even if I'll go down clawing to every inch of life that I can on the way down.

[That much is sincere but - ]

I don't really have a use or a reason to blackmail you, so it feels weird having information on you that you only felt like giving me because you thought I was going to kick the bucket.

[ . . . ]

It's tempting to call it karma, but I'll refrain.