It's stressful because at any moment, one of us could meet our end.

You know by now that that's how I've been leaving for at least the past five years or so... and it's been my personal belief that I should make the most of the time I have until the end, so long as I don't leave anyone behind with hurt feelings.

[What an interesting way to explain the fact that Jae-ha does literally whatever he wants.]

It might make things awkward - but it might turn out a lot better than you're thinking, too.